finding yourself in glass pieces a mosaic of your own determent you served your precious time only for a moment you lie you lie to me as you lie awake with me weakness a promise you never thought you'd end up in a ruined apartment complex
i was just a visitor visiting hours is over ask the shadows of my past i wasn't the one you thought i was a carcass a circus you tell every lie you cannot tell a ray of sun you thought you're done an air of your only hope up there your words unspoken
a letter on the table in this cheap ran down motel cracked wall papers mute witness a letter named for you in block letters it read your heart what it meant
jumped in your wrecked mauped drifting as your life passes you away battling with a traffic of thoughts the lights weren't there to guide you not anymore.. not anymore..
wehey.. The new job is going to be night operations and I'm sure people will ask "call center?" hahaha nope.. I wont elaborate anymore...
Lately I've been having flashbacks of angst and sonic ugliness of the past. I hate it. I just had to snap out of it, and good thing I was able to. Again, I refuse to elaborate. *sigh*
I can't relate enough to Yael Naim's "New soul", yes it's used for the new mac air commercial {you know, where the mac air is inserted inside a manila envelope? haha}. If you're not familiar here's a gist {or the whole song rather}.. lol
New Soul
I'm a new soul I came to this strange world Hoping I could learn a bit 'bout how to give and take But since I came here, felt the joy and the fear Finding myself making every possible mistake
La, la, la, la (21x) La, la, la, la (21x)
See I'm a young soul in this very strange world Hoping I could learn a bit 'bout what is true and fake But why all this hate? try to communicate Finding trust and love is not always easy to make
La, la, la, la (21x) La, la, la, la (21x)
This is a happy end Cause you don't understand Everything you have done Why' s everything so wrong
This is a happy end Come and give me your hand I'll take you far away
I'm a new soul I came to this strange world Hoping I could learn a bit 'bout how to give and take But since I came here, felt the joy and the fear Finding myself making every possible mistake
New soul... (la, la, la, la,...) In this very strange world... Every possible mistake Possible mistake Every possible mistake Mistakes, mistakes, mistakes...
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Yes, I am a new soul. Again, trying to reinvent myself for the nth time. Trying to forgive the past, and everytime i try i never fail to bake a fresh batch of mistakes..
I'm a bit in a cliffhanger situation right now. I'm waiting for the result of my application in -----. hehe {cge i-ccliffhanger ko din kayo}. I had my final interview thru skype coz the new president is still in vietnam. I just hope that ifever i get considered I'll be working on the dayshift, kasi kung hindi parang nag-call center narin ako hehe Natutuwa narin akong mabilis ang processing kasi the day after my first interview and exam, final interview na agad. Thanks din to mr. goodboy sa mga tips and hints! hehe
I'm happy with how things are right now. It's slowly smoothing out and I know gilbert is loving me more. :) Though I still object with some things, things that someone else should own up to. May mga tao lang talagang stubborn, I'm just hoping na matuto narin sila. Sila rin ang may kailangang matutunang leksyon. At least I was able to confide with a wise person, wise kasi oldy na talaga hindi nagmamarunong na neneng. Anyways, I don't hate anyone in any way naman, I guess I just got disappointed kasi nga I felt betrayed and amplastik naman talaga whichever way you put it.
sha sha.. I don't mean to bash anyone anymore. Eto talaga yung example ng freedom of expression lang, hindi yung simpleng parinig tapos pag nakompronta eh ijjustify yung mali...
