I got a text message (and 4missed calls) from Ms. Cheri, the HR associate who interviewed me for Axis Global. I think I may have a chance to be hired as a Corporate Accounts/ Development Officer. I thought maybe I wasn't considered since it's been days since I last heard from them. The final interview will be scheduled pa since I'm gonna be interviewed by the President of the company himself. whew* nervous* haha He's out of the country daw so wait nalang ako for the schedule. At least I'm for final interview na. Sana tanggap na, para pipili nalang ako. hooray! Yesterday i emailed my resume naman sa co-member ni Gilbert sa HCP. He's from San Miguel naman and he'll help me daw. Sana magustuhan naman ako ng HR for the marketing department, magkaron man lang sana ako ng chance hehe I'm not desperate or anything, kung tutuusin it's not that hard to get a job eh, mahirap mahanap yung career na gusto mo. I can't map my career path if I don't even have a gist where I wanna go or what I wanna be.

*sigh* I just hope matanggap narin ako sa Axis, ok na yun kung tutuusin. Ire-reimburse din nila phone bill ko eh :) {isa lang yan sa mga benefits}

*from multiply*

In this entry, I am letting it all out in the open.

And by "it" I mean my resignation.

I took the job for 2 reasons, and two reasons alone- one, because I need money for my baby, and two- because I had to. If you think about it, it can be considered as one and the same. But in my sense it's not. Anyway, I have been struggling with a lot of things in my life and I realized that adding another load wouldn't help. In order for me to be a better person, mom and wife, I must first serve my time in my cell so I can finally figure out what I really want to be and where I want to go.

I've always wanted the free-spirit-tag, I mean if there's any label you'd give me it might as well be "free-spirit". Being a slave in the corporate world isn't really for me. I understand rules, policies and regulations and abide and comply my ass to them. Plus I've always envied acquaintances / friends who swims in the creative ocean. It's always been my idea of a "comfort zone". Though I also want stability not just for me but also for my baby, I can't really afford to go experimental on money-making- not now, not ever. But it's a risk I have to take. I need to get a taste of it since I've been craving it for quite some time now. I wish I can find a job that will serve me just that. I don't feel all confident right now since I know I'm not fully equipped with the tools of the trade, but I can learn and it's never too late.

Alam kong pag nalaman to ng nanay ko (hindi to paranoia or walang-basehang agam-agam) iisipin na naman na di ako tumagal, wala akong tiyaga, o batugan akong tunay. Ngunit aking sinasaisip ang posibilidad na hindi lamang niya ito lubusang naiintindihan dahil hindi niya ito naranasan {pasintabi nalang, hindi ko sya kinukutya}. Ang sakin lang, alam ko na ang trabaho ay hindi isang larong-bata na pag sapit ng kulimlim at mistulan nang trapo ang mga kamiseta ng mga kalaro ay uuwi na ako at magpapahinga sa buong araw na paglalaro. Lalu pa't ngayon na meron na kong anak {dependent ika nga sa TAX hehe} alam kong wala akong karapatang magpahinga o magsawa. At hindi, hindi sawa ang salarin. Isang simpleng realisasyon ang tanging nag-udyok sa aking desisyon. Wala akong pinagsisisihan, "it felt right" kumbaga.

Kung meron man akong pag-aalangan ngayon ito ay ang kakulangan saking kaalaman, na kaya (at kung hindi man), kakayanin kong alamin. Kailangan kong maging ganap na ambisyosa. hehe So ano ba talaga ang gusto ko? Sikretong malupit. bwahaha kung nagbabasa kang talaga andaming clues. Umupo ka muna sa iyong thinking chair kung di mo nagets at isulat sa iyong handy-dandy notebook ang mga clues. hehehe

note to self:
"Tama na ang pakikinig sa iba, mas sasaya ka kung makikinig ka sa sarili mo. Dahil ikaw lang ang nakakaalam kung ano ang gusto mo sa buhay."

Wow. Nakakatuwa naman, I just checked my email and I have an employer request from lina_emprequest already. Ibig sabihin nito ay may company na nag-view ng resume mo at interesado silang pag-apply-in ka. At dahil pi-n-requalify ka ng company mas mataas ang chances na kunin ka nila. :) I don't know what Xoom AutoGas is all about yet, but they're interested in me applying as a Marketing/ Business Development Officer. The job description goes something like; "Shall be tasked to create marketing programs and strategies to increase awareness of the public about the business. Shall create key accounts and open business opportunities in all industry connected with automobiles". Gusto ko ata to.. XD

I just checked out the company profile and it's a bit interesting. I just hope the offer will be within my expectations hehe If not- there are other better jobs :) we'll see..

This morning, I said to myself; "it's friday, and it's my last day..." I cried bcoz I got touchy yesterday with my boss and got a little emotional today with my team. It's funny how I get attached to people I don't know well. Anyway, on to my next job! I loved working in HSBC, but it's not for me. The job itself is not for me. I felt a sense of relief when I filed my resignation today. It's official- I am jobless! hahahaha Nah. I will find a better path, one that will suit me and one that I'll love more. Of course now that I've been with a top bank corporation my work value climbed a notch, and I'm proud of myself :) Hello higher pay hehehe

I just need to rant!!!!!!!!!!

My gawd!!!! I'm really harassed this week.... I need to go out on saturday night, is all i need i swear.. i've been trying to pull up my numbers, and gawd am i exhausted! stoic!!! stoked!!! Lahat na... Let the all the ranting metaphors boil down on me! I just can't stand the unnecessary sungit- technique of some people. Badtrip lang lalo kasi may mga taong kesho matagal na eh nag-popower trip.. oh my gawd.. and i thought may pinag-aralan at modo mga tao dito... actually marami naman professionals eh, ang problema marami rin ang hindi. I hate superiority especially when it gets out of hand. How can other peopl work if there are jerks hogging the workstation, or making you move over when they need to use the computer. Go find your own! It's just so annoying, first come first served nga eh dba.!? Senior na nga parang di naman makaintindi. I'm not the only one pestered. I'm speaking in behalf of 4 confirmed victims. I'm not exactly bullied, my co-newbie is. Kung utusan kala mo PA. Tama ba yun? Kung sakin gawin yun d ako papautos, i'll joke about it but i wont do what they say.. favors are different from commandering... There's no "fine line" between them. period!