i got really frustrated yesterday.. i guess i was going thru regression. i was bottling up emotions since my childhood days and it seemed to have consumed the rest of my growing up years- til last night.. gilbert had been profusely begging me to confront them but i wont budge. i'm never really good at confronting deep-rooted feelings when it comes to my family. i don't know why. maybe because it hurts more than anything else. in the end of every forum i'm always the loser of the game.. when i woke up this morning i felt better. i thought of looking for a good psychologist, i'm thinking i need psychiatric help.. or maybe i just needed a good night sleep.

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ysabella news.

may gig-slash-shoot sina jeff dati (asawa ng kaibigan ko) sa paseo de sta. rosa. kasama daw nila c judy ann santos eh d ako naniwala nuon hehe. di pa nagsstart ang ysabella dat tym so i waited to see if jeff was really shooting scenes with sitti and aiza seguerra. inaabangan ko cla lumabas. hehe

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tomorrow gilbert's gonna be here. i wish matuloy na mga postponed megatrips nmen. i miss being the free spirited girl that i was, (am)...hmmm mahilig talaga ako maglakbay at magmunimuni sa lansangan. lurker nga naman. hehe

red texted me at around 7am yesterday. gawd.. hayun. nasaksak daw sya ng holdaper malapit sa kanila. red has a big physique. you have to be on drugs to believe that you can take him down. well he nevere saw the face, maxado daw madilim tapos maitim pa ung holdaper. siyeet.. he was stabbed on the shin twice. parang mahinang gripo daw ang pagtagas ng dugo..ahem gud thing im not that squimish.. katakot lang. we used to walk after dinner sa subdivision nila. sa marikina un by the way. hmmm god have mercy..

hehe ym with my former classmates.. kulit. sama ba nman c ella. eh sooper chismis scooper un! with marsh mahlon, monix & sandz..kitakitz sa binyag.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=8Bo-ZRb1Edg

aaakk! just watched it. so gross.. i can't believe an actual human being can do such a thing! my brother's right, it's gonna hunt you in your sleep..tsk tsk it's a discrimination-slash-inhumane damnation. gawd.. i pray for the souls of the vindicated.

i'm back hehe and with a new skin too! as stoopid as it is i forgot the password haha! napamahal ako sa LJ. kaso walang tag board dun so i guess this is better. malapit na ang binyag ni uzuri, september 16 to be exact. maxado madaming godparents but i can't decide on whom to uninvite. i just don't have the ♥ to. marami kc ang nag-offer hindi naman namen mahindian. besides what's important is for uzuri to have someone to rely on for guidance like second parents. so primary godparents nia matitino at talagang maaasahan tapos the rest chika nalang na natutuwa. regalo din un wahaha although it's the least of our worries.

i hate being sick. yess. i have the flu & it fu(king sucks! baka mahawa pa saken si sofia netoh. i did everything i could to get well. i drank tea, lots of h2o, tylenol for muscle pain, gargled warm water w/salt, etc. oh well..

eann viewed my friendster account again, nag-message xa this time. he sent his condolences for papa. at ang lolo mo, nakikijam na ulit sa maple syrup. i know he loves the music, the light, & the fact that he's a former vocalist. sana he sings for good na.