Oh yes, weekends are the best but if you're a mom like me missing a daughter, you'd be a little more hurt and sore at those people who only think of you as a young irresponsible mother. tsk.tsk.

I am a bit irked with gilly ranting all the time. It's official that i am in dire need of driving lessons- and a mint condition car! He's always complaining about traffic and how tiring it is to drive back and fort every weekends. We don't do that anymore. My mom said I have and need to understand him bcoz it is tiring to drive that long {with SLEX under construction and all} so then I understand. Even if it means I wont get to see Uzuri on a regular basis, even if it means more unpleasant comments will come my way, and even if it means getting fed up of tolerating his lame life. I've done things more exhausting than driving, I've been through troubles more tiring than work. Howcome he complains like this? People around me, especially my mum, tells me to understand Gilly, that he's kawawa for so many reasons, kaya wag ko daw awayin. She tells me she's not siding with anyone in any way but the way i see it- she is. Gilbert is always the one who's "kawawa", eventhough I'm the one away from my daughter. They always think of me as someone selfish and self- centered, what they don't realize is that I've learned to stand on my own thus I've learned to rely on myself alone, I need to take care of myself coz nobody else will. Ako para sa sarili ko. That kind of thing. How is that selfish when I'm only doing what any adult should? They should be proud of me being this way but as it turns out, they're not. So yeah, Gilbert is kawawa when I get mad at him, it's only in good sense that I have the right to be mad because he'd done something that caused me to go berserk. *sigh* Ako yung masama kesho ako yung mattapang. Ako yung hindi marunong umintindi kesho ayoko mag- tolerate. Ako yung buhay- dalaga at masarap daw buhay ko kasi wala sakin anak ko... fuck.

I miss my baby, only I don't wanna cry everytime. I guess in order for people to believe you are hurt, they should see you sob.. How stupid.

grabe. Kailangan ng cuss word if you're gonna describe the movie "ironman". Parang first time ko magwatch ng movie hehe It's really good. Gilbert and I went to see it last night (april30) at sm megamall, cinema 6. The last full show was at 9pm-11 something. Aside from Toni Stark's hot bod and hot cars (audi R8 and S5 coupe), this billionaire has a mind of a genius and his character still maintained his feet on the ground. He runs his business with a heart and acted as if his not the most superior being on earth. Gawd! I love him haha Talk about my ideal man hmm :) I wanna watch again!

Gilly and I checked out units at Manors a while ago. Prices range from 2.7M - 3.2M. I want a house not a condo unit. I told him I really wanted to don a car first, i wanted to drive since I was in highschool. I can drive an A/T already {who can't anyways? hehe} I just need lessons. Kanina we were driving along UP, actually I was driving! {yeah he let me take the wheel!! hehe} hehe I missed Up talaga, i still am a junkie by heart. I missed everything about it. Sometimes tambay lang kame ni gilly dun, sa Sunken, anywhere! Kain ng siomai, barbecue, sometimes with mat being the 3rd wheel. Kaso it rained so we needed to scoot- off. Later we'll visit Sam' s dad's internment at Loyola Memorial at Guadalupe. I don't know the cause of death but later we'll find out.

I'll miss my uzuri. I wont be seeing her over the weekends.. Oh well, Ty and I will go out tomorrow night, I'm thinking- let loose and get miyeh...a little drunk :) Sometimes booze keeps me sane.