it' so fucking frustrating!

it's official. I can't leave my baby/ Not even with my mom. Don't get me wrong, i trust her much. It's just that she has too much on her plate right now, i don't think she'd be able to handle uzuri. Even if i'm waiting for the nanny to arrive, there's no way i'll leave my baby alone with someone i don't know.

Yes, i just signed a contract with Telus (now, i'm revealing the company name), and no matter how fresh the ink of my signature is (i bet if you pressed your finger on it the ink would smudge or rub- off on you) i have to file my resignation. I already called my trainor about it, she advised me to send a resignation letter to the HR as it goes that way. So, why the sudden decision? I wasn't able to come in last night, seems like a bloodbath is about to happen here at home so even if i'm allowed to have one absence doesn't mean i'm good to go.

Last night though, before i started my "desperate housewives" marathon, i realized i already have a job. Well, it's not just some job, it's a career! A lifetime career with no monetary compensation, only heart- warming fulfillment. With everyone busy manning the kubo store my mom bought, nobody's gonna be able to take care of my baby as well as i can. Nobody can really replace a mother's touch. Not even somebody else's mother.

Of course, the time will come when I have to opt for sacrifice. It's not practical if only one parent works to provide. We have so much to save for, we can't live like this forever. As much as some people would hate it, and probably won't understand in a million years, we're gonna have to move out and move in together in our own HOME.

SOON.