until sunday.. it never really came. but then again he was able to come last saturday night and we got up sunday morning (the earliest by the way). he had to go to work kase required daw. i have no problems with his work naman, kaso i just need to know that he's doing whatever he can for our plans to push- through. i'm hoping for better days. it will come, i know. salamat naman at nakakita ako ng effort. i'd rather have him check out other girls than leave me hanging w/ nothing. for me kc, kung publing ang guy alam ko na ang move na gagawen coz i've been there, i've had (not naman a series but) some experiences regarding cheaters. so in short na-master ko na ang trick. kasi pagdating sa lack of effort eh naku, medyo novice ako dahil complicated talaga pag walang effort. you're not the one who's gonna move for the person. kusa nga kase and mahirap magsalta or mag- suggest coz then it'd seem like you're dictating him. pero you can't leave him clueless coz hindi nga naman sila manghuhula to know what you have in mind. at syempre, hirap na nga sila intindihan ang takbo ng isip ng babae papahulain mo pa, dba? hehe

i want to go shopping.. for gifts and for personal things.. his time i can't.. not because i have a baby now, but because i don't have moolah for it. yes, there's a big diff. *sigh