yes. it's hard to get along with someone who doesn't live in the same world you live in. it's like we don't even exist in the same dimension. but then you realize, when you're in a daze, you go panting helplessly w/o him...

yesterday we went out. it's baby's first day out! hehe it's been eons since my last visit at ATC, so i was in an "awe" kind of state. yes dun nag-shoot ang " a love story".. funny we just watched it the night before. imagine the love scene of aga muhlach and maricel soriano. i respect her and all, but come on ebet and i can hardly keep our eyes open during their bed scenes. we were like "aaaaaagh!!" the whole time. the whole friggin time. hehehe oh well, it's the price we have to pay for watching the movie..hahahaha something's pestering me. i mean "someone". there's this guy i met way back, years before we met face to face he was texting me or contacting me at myspace. i was still single back then. after some time we lost touch & i fell in love with my current hubby. i got in at teleperformace and remembered that "he" also works in a call center. i stumbled at his number & asked away. we then found out that we were working in the same company, same bldg of course, but he wasn't an agent. he's part of the mission control department. i was already with gilbert at that time so no flirting took place. sure there were eating lunches (@ 2am) together, or messages on my station every now & then but i was only being a friend to him. i wasn't interested regardless of his seemingly good looks. there's already a buzz goin around with both our names on it but we didn't mind them. i didn't mind them. until i decided to stay away from him. he kept texting me, finding out my schedule was a cinge for him because he's one of the people who has access to see or change work schedules. since the stress of the job was getting to me, the school works were piling up, & my colds never left me, i decided to leave the company. after a year or so, thanks to friendster (ugh!!), he found me. i'm not saying he's so into me, it's just that it's a bit of an awe for someone who ( as i discovered) was already attached when he insisted on seeing me during the wee hours way back. as the story goes, i found out he already had a gf then. good thing i'm not the kind of person who can idiotically fell for a boobie trap. nobody can stupify me all that easy. i never nudged him since. that is, until now. he's online at this very moment. said he & his gf broke up just last night.. "so??" , i said to myself. he's being a jerk, no surprise here. he knows i have a baby already. i'm sure i'm not insinuating anything for him to get the idea that i'm interested, so why is it that he's inkling me to view his webcam. he is asking for something sick & twisted. asshole. i declined. he's beginning to creep me out.

i'm sore at my hubby but it's no reason to screw up. nothing is heavy enough to weigh off my bond with gilbert & my baby. it's a pity. i actually thought that by trying to talk things out with the creep, he could actually be a good friend or gent at the very least. i thought wrong. i'm lucky gilbert's different. i'm lucky we're already together when i met the creep.