? Friday, January 27, 2006
oo andito na nman ako sa bahay ng magaling kong howe.at umuulan na nman ng mga halik.wehehehe im planning to join the "last man standing" competition by animax at Glorietta. It's supposed to be a marathon. All i have to do is watch animax and stay awake for 24 hours. That's right! 24 hours of non-stop anime. I'm thinking i can do it. i've been missing the tv since it got busted. So i only get to abuse my eyes during the weekends. I've been thinking i should practice.. you know, so i can stay up as long as i want to. And win the competiton! A whopping 500 dollars is at stake! so why not? I've always been free of bedtime drags. I've been abusing no-sleep privileges since i was in highschool, only it got the best of me so i ended up developing a certain time of sleep. I didn't impose it on myself though, it just..happened, on its own! Darn..So there, i tire unplanned. I'm not a very disciplined person, so i try to defy the omen of yawning with caffeine. But coffee doesn't work like that on me, instead it relaxes me and helps me doze off! sleep takes its revenge on me in my dreams. I guess even if i die, i'd still be dreaming. haha postmortem bardo. I read it in the biggest book i've ever seen in powerbooks so far. i always go to powerbooks whenever i have time to kill. well, i don't go there "to kill".stupid. anyway, postmortem bardo is, as the term implies, after death dreaming. it's indian. a book by rolio shrestha or something..(oops, apologies for the incapacity to recall). Great illustrations this book has. I've always been fond of indie art.. (i wonder if it had anything to do with me being shakti?? hehe i got it from india tlga, so no wonder.)segue--- I was in megamall last tuesday looking for a bank so i can encode a new pin number, when out of nowhere this guy in black, seemed to be following me. At first, i told myself "oh, wag kang assuming..." pero when he followed me up to the 5th floor i knew there was something more than my 'pagfi-feeling'. So i went down to the ground floor where i found a bank, presented my id's and encoded a new pin. i went back up to powerbooks and checked out my newfound music at tower records. It's cool, really. Coz you don't have to buy the cd's just to check 'em out. So here i go again with abusing freebies..hehe im just being a customer. In the middle of soundtripping and with matching papikit-pikit while feeling the music and the poetry, out of nowhere na naman tong black-shirt, pa-astig-tunnel guy who seemed cuter now that he's just behind me. He picked the Korn cd out of the shelf and looked at me hair all messed up coz of the old headphone i was wearing. I think he's making me sniff him. He smelled nice but i didn't follow his scent! Sorry, im only turned on with my boyfriend's perry ellis! wahaha I stared at the guy and he just stared back, and being the least proper girl that i am i acted a loner bitch and rolled my eyes at him. And never saw him again..I was relieved actually. i know i'm not dainty-pretty but i know when i look good or when i can be mistaken for a piece of s***. i'm just not the kind of person who'd be all smiles and hanefs-kilig when moments like that look me straight in the eye. hmmm Maybe a new era of my conservativo self has begun. Oh well, i hav my howe to thank for that. You see, we're not exactly brought up the same way. But i've always had this apt for being a bit proper when i'm with his family. Iv'e always considered myself as someone who's grown into her own found wisdom. I've always told myself i raised myself when it comes to living my life. Coz i'm the only one who ever knows 'me'. This doesn't mean i don't listen to my parents, im glad they exist when i need them to. i love 'em of course. They're the reason i'm alive and learning. i would've found other ways but my existence as a human being has had me waving my hands to the air and singing to myself while the wind plays its sweet melody for entities like me. And when i feel im alone, really alone. I sing and offer my tunes to the earth, then id be sure that nobody's watching. Even if im riding a jeep stuck in traffic..
